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Empty

Thu, 05 Nov 2009 15:43:02 GMT

Degeneration. It's undesirable, uncontrollable, and it frightens me. Somebody get me a heart.

Wed, 14 Oct 2009 17:51:33 GMT

On the verge of depression.

A Tale of Two Cities

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 13:37:06 GMT

"I heard you were released, Citizen Evremonde. I hope it was true?"
"It was. But, I was again taken and condemned."
"If I may ride with you, Citizen Evremonde, will you let me hold you hand? I am not afraid, but i am little and weak, and it will give me more courage."

As the patient eyes were lifted to his face, he saw a sudden doubt in them, and then astonishment. He pressed the work-worn, hunger-worn young fingers, and touched his lips.

"Are you dying for him?" she whispered.
"And his wife and child. Hush! Yes."
"Oh, you will let me hold your brave hand, stranger?"
"Hush! Yes, my poor sister; to the last."

The hardest part...

Sun, 28 Jun 2009 12:40:19 GMT

It has been 5 months less one day since i posted.
This is the last day before Mid Years start.

Lay it all down at His feet.
Yet, that's the hardest part
To put all our faith, our hopes our trust in him, and to truly believe that despite all our inadequacies, our sins, our mistakes, our nauseating immorality, he loves us and has great things in store for us.
This hope in his promises is what will bring me through this grueling phase, these 6 months of emotional pressure.
For the Joy of the Lord is my strength.

I pray that everyone doing A levels or IB will never cease to grow in faith and although I have slacked much in my growth I am certain that he will shelter us and keep us warm in this long-drawn storm.

Let not anxiety paralyse you, but keep going, keep doing your best, and keep our Almighty father in mind.
To God be the glory, the Best is yet to be.

CONTROL

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 13:51:56 GMT

I hate it when people drift apart, but it's inevitable, so DEAL WITH IT ARIEL!
): x infinity

(GREAT)grandma...

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 18:35:30 GMT

As a kid, I was always proud of the fact that I had a great grandmother. I remember how she would take the train from Malaysia to Singapore to visit us once a year. She would bring packets of herbs to boil soup (I hated the black coloured ones because i never knew what went in them and they always tasted horrid ><). She was so strong and healthy, never failing to walk around the estate every evening. I still remember telling her to walk slowly, "man man hang", simply because those were the only few cantonese words I knew how to use properly. She'd fold newspapers to use as tissue paper and taught me cantonese when I asked her to (the only word i remember her teaching is car, yes i FAIL). One year, she came, and had a huge quarrel with my grandmother, about what, I never knew. Another year, or it could have been the same year, the entire family, including my aunt and uncles sat around and listened to her tell her life story.

This is what i gathered from it:
She lived through the Japanese Occupation, and had to do menial labour while she was pregnant.
She gave birth to twins before, but because of horrid living conditions (some worms if i'm not wrong), they died. Her mother-in-law made her sleep in the barn or something ):
My grandaunt got carried away by baboons before

This year, I pieced bits and pieces of my relatives lives, and learnt a lot more about my great grandmother and my relatives in Malaysia.
Her first daughter, my mama, lived the most fulfilling life amongst all her children. Married to a Singaporean, she managed to bring up 4 children who are doing well, to say the least. Although the initial stages of motherhood caused her much pain (she tried to abort my father by taking medicine but failed, AHA SEE THAT'S HOW I'M HERE AWW AREN'T YOU HAPPY AHHAHA) she got through it and lived a comfortable life till cancer struck. Even then, she came to know Christ and passed on peacefully.
Her second son, my kaugong, has 4 children. Till today, he is still supporting his first son who has been plagued by a mental illness. His three other children are doing well; his third daughter gave birth to her second son last year, and his last son also got married last year.
Her third daughter, my samyipor, has been blessed. She now sells fried beehoon, and her two children are living comfortably, with stable careers and happy families. Her son who had also been mentally ill, has just moved into a new house.
Her fourth daughter, my seiyipor, is close to bankruptcy. With a son who doesn't hold a steady job and lives off her and her husband, she also has to support her daughter who is working overseas. Once the richest among the children, her medical hall has suffered from urbanization. It has not changed for years despite the ever changing environment, and thus currently has minimal business. She just recovered from a bout of mental illness a few years ago.
Her fifth daughter remains unmarried, and is the one who will be shouldering most of the burden when her senile dementia worsens. Having suffered from polio, she also has low self-esteem, but what keeps her going is her faith in God. Sometimes we find her a nuisance, but I know that she's doing everything out of love.

This Chinese New Year's Eve, when I reached Jalan Alor in Bukit Bintang, I was truly excited to be able to see my Ah Tai. I ran into the medical hall to hug her. Alas, after saying the usual of "ahhh, you've grown", she asked me "lei hai bing gor?", who are you? My heart. really. sank. It struck me that one day, she wouldn't recognise me even if i tell her that I'm "mun mun", like I had to this year. In fact, she could pass on anytime soon. I still remember how I used to wish that she'd still be alive when I'm married and have children, then she can cook my confinement food like she did for my mother, and my children would have a greatgreatgrandmother. Now, I just wish that she'll remember me as long as possible, and live a healthy, peaceful life.

Happy Chinese New Year!

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 18:59:32 GMT

It's been an entire school term since i've updated, everything's just zooomed by the past few months, and here I am, a Year 6 student, in ACS(I), in her last year before she heads to university (or the army). As much as I complain and grumble about my inadequacies and whatever nub moments I encounter, I'm just grateful to have made it through to this year, and for the wonderful memories that I'll take with me even as I leave (OH NO THIS IS SUCH A DEPRESSING THOUGHT ZOMGGG *MAJORSADFACE*)

I shall stay up today to do my TOK, TIME TO GROW UP ARIEL, NO MORE PROCRASTINATING!!!!

GUH I JUST FINISHED THE LAST OF THE WONDERFUL PINEAPPLE TARTS, HEARTBREAK!!!

Oh, and i just remembered a specific incident I wanted to commit to memory! The Chronicles of the crazy IB girls, who especially enjoy running up the stairs while laughing uncontrollably. (The last time, it was about barley, this time, they were just abandoning me :@) I guess no matter how old you are (in this case, approaching the REALLY OLD AGE OF 18 WHICH ISN'T REALLY OLD IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT) you'll always have such spastic moments.

I really have a lot to say, but everything's just so cluttered in my mind, and I refuse to 'pack'. So well, LOOKING FORWARD TO A YEAR OF HARD WORK AND EMOTIONAL ROLLER COASTERS, ALL OF US WILL MAKE IT INTO 2010 UNSCATHED. By the grace of God, 2009 shall be an OWNAGE year (it HAS to be, last year in IB eeekkk).

I'd really post this post immediately, but something at the back of my mind wants to type more. I think something's bothering me. oooohhh, i hate that feeling! hmmmmm let's seee okay no i really don't know what it is so fine i really will click post now. BUT NO UGH, crap, must be something to do with the reality that I'm avoiding. Yes, this shall be chucked back into the back (hahaha okay not funny) of my mind. WEUHBOVILWEHNGC. hokay bye.

OHHH yeah I had a bout of intense self-annoyance that day, maybe today too. It was horrid, I hope that it will never ever ever ever happen again. WHASWRONGWIMMEEEEEEhehehe okay really TOK NOWNOWNOWNOWNOWOW GOARIEL WHOOO!

SCHOOL'S KINDA FUN NOW, ESPECIALLY WITH THE CNY DECO!! HAHAHA WE HAVE CHANNELED ALL OUR EXCESS CREATIVE JUICES FROM LAST YEAR INTO IT, SO MUCH UNTAPPED POTENTIAL HAHAHA okay who am I kidding! BUT IT WAS FUN ANYWAY, I HEART 6.15JUDEA! Thank God for the wonderful teachers that are teaching me this year, and for the friends and my family and for everything else in the world!!! I'M GONNA BE AN OGL FOR REAL NEXT WEEK, WHOOOOOO!!!!! And I still haven't done my New Year Resolutions, hahaha it's okay i'll do it over CNY since I'm chinese. OMGOSH I HAVE SUCCESSFULLY STOPPED BEING A SERIAL ADDICT, AREN'T YOU PROUD OF ME, NO MORE DISTRACTIONS THIS YEAR!!! I hope heh heh...

k really bye.

Mon, 03 Nov 2008 12:53:45 GMT

I'm going crazy.

Mon, 20 Oct 2008 14:52:26 GMT

SMALL GIRL
I THINK YOU SHOULD STOP YAWNING AND SCOLDING ME IN ALL YOUR WAKING HOURS
YOU ARE A SLOTH
IF YOU WERE A POKEMON
YOU WOULD BE SNORLAX
HAHAHAHAAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
"FAT AND GREY AND UGLY"
JUST LIKE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BUT YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE SMELLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
PLS START BATHING MORE
ILY (not as much as ylm)!!!!!!!!

Confessions of a serial drama addict (yes, addict)

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 14:46:06 GMT

HOWDYYY

So, I'm gonna come clean about my actual lewser self and my addiction HAHHAA It's entirely for self-amusement because I don't happen to be in the greatest of moods!

Say hello to the lewser of the world, WHO FREAKING MANAGED TO LOSE A NEW BOOK. IN BORDERS.
So, I was all forlorn and tired for about 40 minutes as I scoured the place, which happened to be full of books (DUH RIGHT HAHAA) looking for my book which was a present! And I had so much hope when i saw the book, AND REALISED IT WAS SOLD IN BORDERS (OBVIOUSLY) hahaha yeah i looked through everyone but darn, none had a Times price tag! Thank God I went to the information counter in the end, and the lovely people helped me get my book back WHEEEE I was SOOOO relieved and happy! But ohmo, my legs were SOOO TIRED.

And i need to stop hitting myself accidentally, and poking myself in the eye by rubbing my nose too vigorously or hitting my head by trying to get our of the car quickly (3 times in 2 days, UGH MY INTELLECT, I FEEL IT GETTING KNOCKED AWAAAAY)

I realised what an addict I am. Sometimes I wish I could be addicted to God this way, it'll be awesome!!! I still remember the days of yore, when I'd laze around all the time, mind you, my teachers actually complained about what a lazy girl I was to my mum, telling her that I'd just be carrying my pillow all day and lying down in random places to rest. Maybe that's why I'm this way now, too much sleep when I was young. And then, around primary 2, I started watching the 7.00 shows faithfully each day. Then, I was introduced into the whole new world of drama serials, and I've yet to turn back. In primary 6, I embarked on the Korean drama journey, with my grandmother who was terminally ill and would watch shows. Minute me, (yes, i USED to be small) would sit quietly on the floor immersed into the Korea that played on the television screen. Since then, I have never stopped. And the BEST THING IS, I'll NEVER FAIL to find new shows right before my EXAMINATIONS. And in case you didn't know, I HAVE A FRIGHTENING LACK OF SELF CONTROL. Sigh... It struck me today that the amount of time I've used on watching drama serials could probably have been the time Warren Buffet took to make his first million (HAHAHA YEAHHH ECONOMICS. okay not really i don't even know how long he took) Ah, prime example of my lack of substance. But whatever, I care about fun too much, drama serials are an escape for me, honestly, maybe I should stop escaping and face the world that requires much determination and hard work. Well, not until I finish the really good drama serials that are worth my time. I'm mostly annoyed at the ones i've watched which were tacky and a complete waste of time. Although, there have been good takeaways, it's so much easier to imagine now that I can gain inspiration from the many plots hahaha and it was because of 倚天屠龙记 that sparked an interest in chinese classics, mostly the condor trilogy though.

{WOAH COOL STUFF I JUST ACCIDENTALLY PRESSED BACK, BUT THIS TECHNOLOGY CAN SAVE STUFF :O} yes, tech noob.

I don't think cheena should be used on chinese people, afterall, we do happen to be chinese, so by default, all of us are supposed to be "cheena" HAHAHA. I just don't like that word. It sounds gross. ON THE OTHER HAND, i think the world phlegm IS AWESOME!! SERIOUSLY HAHAHAHA you can call me phlegmingo, I wouldn't mind.

OKAY YES I'VE LOST MY MIND
AS I IMAGINE THE CLOCK CHIME
SOMETHING THAT RHYMES WITH KIND
CAUSE I'M OUT OF TIME!

HAHAHHHAHAHAHA (omgosh holeycow, I JUST REMEMBERED SOME REALLY SPINE-CHILLING LAUGHTER by the scary woman in 射雕!!! NO JOKE, SCARRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYY)

veh lezzeh (very lazy)

Sun, 12 Oct 2008 14:54:51 GMT

OKAY YAY I HAVE SO MANYMANYMNANYMANY THINGS TO TYPE ABOUT so here goes!!

Last saturday, my younger cousins (WHO'RE SUPER CUTE HAHAHA :D <3) gave my brother and I gifts! so, 2 soft toys right, GUESS THE ANIMALS HAHAHAH well, if you guessed DOG AND CROCODILE, THEN YOU'RE MIGHTY SMART BECAUSE YOU CAN MAKE ASSOCIATIONS. okay whatever ariel ahhaha bUT YEAH I STARTED LAUGHING WHEN I SAW THEM HEHEHE. The Chronicles of the Puppodiles.

Ah, and Sunday was a blast, THANKS TO EVERYONE WHO WISHED ME, greatly appreciated!!!! <333 hahaha MET NYSB FOR LUNCH (stupid gracetay spoilt the surprise BUT HAHA I STILL LOVE HER ANYWAY) so the 8 of us, JOCELYNGRACEEUNICEFELICIANOELLETIANYUNAOMIARIEL ate at Greeks or something, I can't remember, BUT IT WAS AWESOME FUN JUST CATCHING UP AND BEING ABLE TO BE SPASTIC WITH NO QUALMS AGAIN HAHAHAH I'm glad most of us haven't changed that much, and we're stll just able to sit around and talk lots of crap for an extended period of time! Then walked around and went for dinner! Dinner was a little sad though, cause i was having a really bad headache ): but I guess, spending time with my family was good enough, though I suspect I was being grouchy heh heh... AND I SPENT THE LAST FEW HOURS OF MY BIRTHDAY, DOING MATH, HOW LOVELY EH!

So, the end of exams arrived, didn't think much of it i have no idea why, maybe i was too insanely happy all my thoughts ran out, yeah, that must be it! And I thought we were gonna have a class lunch or something, but four of us ADAGERISHERYLARIEL, went to dintaifung in the end! hhahaha It was quite fun CAUSE AFTER THAT, WE WATCHED A CHINESE SHOW, OMGOSH IT WAS HILARIOUS, WE SPENT THE ENTIRE MOVIE MAKING SO MUCH NOISE I'M SORRY >< BUT IT WAS SUCH AN EXPERIENCE, I'VE NEVER BEEN SO TICKLED ABOUT ANYTHIGN LIKE THAT BEFORE HAHAHAHA IT WAS SOSOSOSO WEIRDDD :D It's okay, IB CLB FTW!!!

hmmm, went home and bummed around, before going to Timo's house. I DIDN'T FIND OUT IT WAS A SURPRISE BIRTHDAY PARTY TILL LUKE EXPLICITLY ASKED ME IF I WAS SURPRISED AHHAHA I THOUGHT IT WAS A CLASS PARTY ALL ALONG! So indeed, i was pleasantly, VERY PLEASANTLY, surprised, TWICE :D cause they brought dessert out, AND HIDDEN IN THE MIDST WAS MY CAKEYDOUGHNUT :D hahahhaha THANK YOU SO MUCH FIVEFIFTEENGALATIANS(and rene)2008 HAHAHAHA ahhh, I HEART MY CLASS MANYMANY <333 (no amount of capital words can express my gratitude and happiness) YEAH SO YAYYYYY ;D;D
And we were supposed to sleepover BUT WE ENDED UP CLASSBONDING WHOOOO!!!!! up till 3++ at timo's house. It was just recollecting and laughing at each other and just oh-so-great! ahahha and close to 4, we decided to EATTTT AT KAAAAP!!! So, there marked the memorable overseas-like walk towards KAP, in the early hours of the morning, with the cool breeze blowing against our faces, and our friends of almost a year walking beside us. It was amazing, i just can't put _it_ in words. It reminded me of Maryland, of OM and of things past, and I was verytimesinfinity elated/euphoric/ecstatic/everyotherwordthatsimplymeanshappy. [HAHAHA I FORGOT SOMETHING THAT WAS SOOO FUNNY. BBF, he couldn't be seen WHEN HE SQUAT DOWN IN THE SHADOWS, I'M NOT KIDDING HAHAHAH I really thought he went MISSING and was kinda scared for awhile! UNTIL I SAW THAT SHADOW IN THE SHADOW hahaha OOOH, NATURAL NINJAAA] mmm, since it was so early/late, sheryl and I just went back to my house cause it was closer to Nanyang. We slept around 5 (BREAKRECORD!) HEH HEH :D

SO, the next day, WE SLIPPED INTO THE PILLOWCASE(oh wait, PE tshirt, nehmind, still pillowcase looking) and went back to our alma mater! WHOO hahaha well, it was just fun walking into school again, and she found her OM coach, while i found Madam Oehlers! Walked around for a bit and ate the food WHICH WAS TONNES BETTER WHEN I WAS IN SEC 3!!! gee whizzzz... ohwellos, THEN WE HAD TUITION hahahah

{I'M SUPPOSED TO BE DOING CAS NOW UGH FREAKS OUT IS ANNOYED PROCRASTINATES H8 CAS 4EVERRRRR}

hmmm the next two days or so, weren't memorable.... OHHH i think on Wednesday, I WANTED TO DO MANY THINGS!!! Like change my bike seat SO I CAN RIDE A PROPER BIKE but omgosh, stuff happened and blah. Then I went to Sentosa, didn't do much, so ohwellos, HAD DINNER WITH MUMMY AT SOME JAP RESTAURANT! guess what I ate, KOREAN FOOD HAHAHHA BIBIMBAP :D ><

And the next day, I wanted to go change my bike seat AND fruit shopping, I ENDED UP JUST FRUIT SHOPPING CAUSE WHEN I WANTED TO GO CHANGE THE SEAT, IT RAINED! hahaha yeah OMGSH FRUIT SHOPPING IN NTUC IS THE BOMB FOR REAL!!! I was being all whimsical, looking at the mothers bringing their kids around and it was just so warm and nice and fuzzy HAHAHAH okay uhm yeah! it was mighty interesting! And i saw a woman in a HANBOK SELLING KOREAN GRAPES which i bought, obviously WHOOO haha i think i spent more than an hour, yes I'm a very slow person in general, but it was really great fun!! THE ONLY SETBACK WAS THAT I WAS WITHOUT COMPANY FOR SO LONG SO I COULDN'T TALK MY HEAD WAS BURSTING WITH SO MANY THOUGHTS THAT I CAN'T REMEMBER cause i rambled them out in the end heheh. oMGOSH DEFORMED PUMPKINS ARE SO CUTE, ALL LUMPY AND GROSS AND THE HALLOWEEN THEME IS SCARY, TO EXPERIENCE, GO DOWN TO NTUC @ BUKIT TIMAH PLAZA TODAY! hahah okay shutup. OH AND THE MINI WATERMELONS WERE SO CUTE I AHD TO BUY ONE AND THERE WERE KIWI BERRIES WHICH LOOKED INTERESTING TOO!!!

HMMMMMMMMM okay my brain's tired from recollecting!

had TOK on Friday, wasn't too bad i hope :D ADA PONNED! and had to bum around in school (with Kevin then reeree and Crawshaw) before going to help Nicholas in O level chem! HAHAHA not like i was a big help but yeah, i still remember okay!!! :D
Went home cause I was CRAZYTIRED and then went back again for prayer!!! Couldn't join the GalatiansGirls for dinner though ):

Finally, Saturday! Ms Lyrehs Koh mistook the time of the debrief for 11 instead of 1! So i went to eat breakfast at Yakun HV with her!! WHOOO HAHA I ALWAYS WANTED TO EAT BREAKFAST OUT AND I FINALLY DID, so was satisfied :D Then went to school for the debrief! Was meant to go for some contact rugby clinic, but had lunch and went out with my mum to get her stuff for coldandsnowyChina instead!

THAT MARKS MY WEEK AH, THAT WAS SO MUCH RUBBISH AHHAHA AND I LOVE HU GE/ARIEL LIN, SO MUCH CHEMISTRY!!
Shall start watching the TVB versions. OMGOSH the drama serial i was watching STOPPED AT 1/3 OF THE SERIES OMGOSH I HATE HAVING TO SUFFER FROM INDUCED CURIOSITY FOR AN EXTENDED PERIOD OF TIME ROAR. ahhaaha ahhh hope i find it soon, meanwhile i shall watch she diao 1982 i THINK.

ARIEL THE GREAT SIGNING OFF
ahhhhh I'LL BE 18 IN A YEAR, TOO FAST TOO FAST
my daddy is mean he says i won't pass my first driving test, and he's calling the car "the tank" to protect me from the numerous accidents i probably might get into -.-

MUCH LOVE, ANYEONG

OH HOW COULD I FORGET! I LOVE DIFFY! hahahah HE'S MY NEW FRIEND, AND HIS NAME IS A COMBINATION OF DANIELPHILLIPHENNEY, GO FIGURE!! IT'S MIGHTY FUN TO MAKE VIDEOS WITH HIM HAHAHA :D:D:D

whatever tomorrow brings...

Sat, 04 Oct 2008 09:33:10 GMT

ah, forget it, i shan't even try verbalising those thoughts, it takes too much effort
I spent much of lastnight/thismorning thinking about everything, and I came to the conclusion that I'm glad that I am where I am, Thank God!

So, the uh, BOMB came over yesterday hahahhaha, we had loads of fun just catching up and camwhoring ! took almost a hundred pictures, thanks to photobooth! hahha but mmmm had a great time, haven't heard her girly voice for ages.

I feel strange, must have been the early morning. Not very high, as you can see, ahwells, I hope tmrw will be a great day!!!

I am looking forward tomorrow, <3s the time of the year :D

In my 17th year of living, there are a few things which I want to remember with a smile
1. In Thailand with my PPPPPP/Vietnam with PCM
2. Mission trip
3. ACS
4. Centrestage
5. ODYSSEY OF THE MIND
6. The people I've met

And of course, the One who was with me through it all
He didn't forsake me, and never will

I hope the next year will be as good as this, or maybe even better :D

Mon, 29 Sep 2008 17:33:59 GMT

I had a great weekend, and I was bugging myself (YES YOU CAN DO THAT, if only I could do it to make me study) to remember it some way or another. Alas, I have been lazy (AS USUAL YOU FOOL), and now, I can't remember much. save the WEIRD DREAM. omgosh, I KEEP DREAMING ABOUT PEOPLE KILLING/DEAD PEOPLE. It really scares me, like on saturday afternoon, I dreamt of this dude hanging people who betrayed him, and just yesterday, i dreamt of my late grandmother, and this other boy, who died after something. AHHHH. this is too weird. And saturday afternoon's dream saw me stuck in my house, WITH CROPUPPILES/CROCOPILES/PUPPODILES. I decided the third one sounds the best. Puppodiles they shall be, OMGOSH YES. There was a brood of puppies, and I was just yknw, doing my thing when things are cute, and THEN I realised, that some of them had really long mouths! So, I was like, haha their minds remind me of crocodiles, and yeah one of them WANTED TO EAT ME, IT HAD THOSE SICK SHARP TEETH WHICH TOTALLY GAVE ME THE CREEPS, AND I WAS STUCK IN THE HOUSE, so i had to climb over the gate. Pardon my horrid grammer, IT WAS TOO REAL, I can still remember it. I woke up thinking, boy, I would never let my dogs go near crocodiles, not cause they'd be eaten, but cause they'd mate :/ okaynvm.

Back to reality now, where it seems as if you are is what you get-for-tests. Sigh, I know it's no excuse, yet I keep doing it, (your lack of self-control APPALLS me, Ariel) STUDYYY, why can't you just do it, HUH HUH HUH. I wasted today being asleep/half asleep/reading soompi. >< God gave me a brain, andI had jolly well better put it to good use!! So, since actions speak louder than words, and I just LOVE speaking loudly, I shall go study now hahahah KBYE.

(SHAAAAT) time flies faster than somethingthatfliessofastyoudon'tknowitexists

I'M GONNA BE YEAR 6 NEXT YEAR AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Despite that, I can't wait for EOYs to end
AHA, see, I knew I'd procrastinate.
I feel like writing a whole list of what I'd do, but I guess I REALLY SHOULD STUDY NOW LIKE I SAID A MINUTE AGO, OR MAYBE TWO MINUTES AGO.

Bye, for the last time (I hope)

BAAACK, cause i remembered what I really wanted to blog about! FRIDAAAY :D Cycling/walking is REEEALLLY FUN!!
I shall chart my journey on Friday!
1. Cycled for 40 minutes to Timo's house for econs tuition, it really should only have taken 20 minutes if I were using a proper bike. THE BIKE I'M USING IS CURRENTLY RENDERED OBSOLETE. IT'S MY PRI 5 BROTHERS. And his 17 year old sister is still using it :O
2. Cycled out after tuition, but decided it was too dark to cycle home alone, so I cycled with Alex to his house to wait for my daddy to pick me up and send me to church
3. After prayer/longjohn's, I decided to go find my crazybrother, who was at pandan valley. I had no wallet, so I borrowed 5 cents (I had 50 cents already), and took a bus, BUT THE BUS DIDN'T GO TO PV. So, smart me got down one stop after the holland busstop, and walked! It took me about 30 minutes, AND YOU SHOULD NEVER WALK ALONG THAT ROUTE AT NIGHT, the HEEOOGE houses at the side of the road LOOK MENACING AND DARK (like the one in monster house ><) I WAS SOOO SCARED I WALKED ON THE DOUBLE YELLOW LINES AND THEN I WAS SCARED OF BEING KNOCKED DOWN, BUT SINCE I'M MORE SCARED OF THE DARK, I CONTINUED. It became better after I passed Jelita :D The night wind was really nice, and it just felt great to be able to empty my not-so-full head. WHOOO yeah, then after that, my brother and I walked to the sunsetwayflats busstop, where we waited for daddy! I was really high, like dancing around and such hahhaha I <3 my crazybrother who loves to walk too! :D

AND ON SATURDAY, MY MUMMY CAME BACK WITH MANYMANY FOODIESGOODIES, Beef jerky (with korean words on the packet, and other languages too), Korean seaweed, lots of beef and ham and sausages whooooo!
On a sidenote, I NEED to learn Korean. "hello, friend, thank you, sorry, idiot, keep quiet, stupid, go away, stop, grandmother, father, mother, brother" cannot form nice long sentences where my flair for the language can be apparent! More importantly, NO MORE WAITING FOR SUBTITLES WHOOOO

That's enough for today, I HAVEN'T STUDIED AHHHHHH

okay I shall REALLY go off now BYEBYE! for the third and last time!!!

of beatles and bugs

Mon, 22 Sep 2008 13:36:38 GMT

My mild bout of beatlemania has finally passed, BUT paul is still the cutest! Oops, was I mean.

I have been wilful, making the wrong decisions pertaining to the questions which i suppose everyone faces WHEN SHOULD I START STUDYING, or maybe SHOULD I EVEN STUDY. This has gone beyond procrastination, it's a whole new problem altogether, and I cannot place it. I shall just have to rely on God to bring me through the last lap, and accept whatever he gives me in the end.

Things that bug me

#1: Unscrupulous chinese middlemen who have now rendered the people who sell milk in Chine jobless. It's not as if they live easy lives, and now, they're probably facing a huge crisis, milking cows having been their sole livelihood. Even as people suffer from the biggest financial crisis since the Great Depression, let us not forget those who have also suffered from the recent discovery of contaminated milk products.

#2: We need to take a more proactive stance. By just being happy in our own church, with our collective efforts, we must also remember that as individuals, we can make a difference too. Almost half a million babies have been aborted ever since abortion was made legal, hs has been increasingly accepted. Are we just going to sit back and let these pass? How will we be the salt and light of the world then? I don't know the answers either. ~~(It's just like how some don't care for honours when it's given to them, and those that have it taken away care a whole load more than they should)~~

#3: People sitting alone.

#4: you. (HAHA)

ON A LIGHTER NOTE, RG'S IN THE PAPERS HAHAHAHA SO CUTE :D:D:D <333 haha and I ran into a door today, am becoming more of a lewseerr, aaahhh, save meeee.

And gosh, it starts TOMORROW. Ariel, get back to studying now

deesgoosteeng

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 16:24:37 GMT

NO WORDS CAN EXPRESS THIS.
hah, I just did.

It can't believe it all boiled down to this
Sometimes I just want to deny and escape, to remain ignorant of this INJUSTICE
After all we did, the late nights, the pain, the tears and the illnesses/injuries
YOU WANT TO GIVE US DEMERIT POINTS
I won't refute your view that we were disrespectful, and I chide myself for that
I just don't see why you have to break the team up, and your rationale behind the "I'll debrief you 4 months after what happened"
WHAT THE, SERIOUSLY.

But this also showed me how important it is to walk close to Him
I had abandoned him, in pursuit of fun and achievements, due to lack of discipline and loss of love (as an action, ooh triple A :D)
And on hindsight, I regret it immensely
What am I doing, as a Christian for Him, I feel as if I've brought nothing but negativity
Thankfully, his Grace overpowers all my gaping imperfections
I shall try to keep the faith and discipline (sadly, this thought rarely translates into actions)
His will be done.

PRESS ON PEOPLE!!!! :D:D

Today was fun, despite the many foolish acts
#1: Got tricked into thinking that one was late for math class. I would have liked to be a bystander, looking at the crazy girl running into class screaming "MAAAADAAAAAAAMMMMM, DON'T GREEEET YEEETTTT".
#2: In a bid to scare Isaac, I mistook badly printed notes for notes printed wrongly, AND TORE THE SHEET UP. Egad! I can't believe I did it. Will not try to be smart anymore. (this reminds me of the time I got water for 6 of us, and put sugar solution instead of water in one cup thinking that I'd get a really funny reaction, and wondering who the "lucky" person would be. No prizes for guessing who ended up with that cup)
#3: Pabo1 and Pabo2 tried putting a handphone in my bag, and called it. Tried to be smart, and walked fastly down, hoping that they'll be the ones having to chase after me in the end. WELL, IN THE END I WALKED BACK UPSTAIRS ONLY TO REALISE THEY WENT DOWNSTAIRS. Pabos indeed. hahaha but I wanted to walk a lot today, Sheryl kept asking me if I was alright heaheahea.

FiveFifteenGalatiansForever
HAHAHAHAHA if i had a girl group, I'd call it GG, (oooh, Girl's Generation, some korean group), Galatian's Girls! WHOOO okay it doesn't sound all that nice geez.

Spastic is the new cool :D

Be careful what you wish for,
give up.

TOK disturbs minds.

YUMMMYYYYYY

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 12:15:16 GMT

On a sidenote, ICE CREAM IS GOOD FOR THE SOUL HAHAHAHA IT PWNS CHICKEN SOUP!!! (haha chicken soup for the soul, get it get it!!!) HAHAH okay not funny.

Consumed:
Mango Magic and Simply Chocolate from daily scoop
Cookie Dough from Ben and Jerry's
Chocolate and cookies&cream from Haagen Dazs
Chocolate cornetto (THIS MADE MY DAY AHAHHA although i currently have brown stains below my collar :/ )

EAT ICE CREAM TODAY :D:D:D ahahhahaha

Oh, by the way, I'm STALIM (She's The Ariel LIM) OR, Lim Huckleberry Ariel HAHAHA

Yes, it seems as if i have nothing better to do, IT'S NEHMIND, I ENJOY THIS SORT OF FUN.

Give thanks for everything

Thu, 11 Sep 2008 11:43:21 GMT

12 days and counting. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
DFUIRTQERGHQERHUTBPEURTN *nervous breakdown*

HAHAHA okay. yes, I'm still watching 너는 내 운명, mmmm really am digging my own grave...

Ohwellos! the seven o'clock show is freaking stupid omgosh. spastic... I wish I lived in Korea!!!

Gee whiz, i had so much to say, but it's completely out of my mind currently. Sigh, TOK really makes me feel brainless. Reading about journalism and photography is so interesting though, I just might want to work in that field next time, but I'll be economically insecure though hahaha.

Huckleberry Finn made me reflect on my religion, that is, Christianity. To think the same bible could lead to so many different interpretations, a different code of ethics in society all because of the time difference. Reading the book was a real adventure though, I could picture the entire setting, the river, the raft and the rapscallion himself! But thinking about it in literary terms is so PISSING, yes, it's almost depressing! All the subversion and the satire and whatnot, my laziness begs for it to be simple and easy.

I don't even know why I'm updating, like homework, meaningless...

Anyeong

Sun, 17 Aug 2008 14:24:46 GMT

Everyday...

I wonder why

and I wish...

Congested

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 14:27:37 GMT

is what i currently feel right now…

There are a couple of things I want to note down before I forget.

#1: It’s amazing how that one episode changed the entire dynamics of my extended family. Sometimes, I feel sad for my father, I’m sure he isn’t as comfortable as he feels around the family. It’s such a strange misunderstanding, where our family is like the “madman” in Lu Xun’s short story. It hurts, for me it does, not to be able to see my cousins, and to see my parents being victimised sometimes. Family, the basic unit of a society, yet torn apart by financial and business issues, what a pity.

#2: Societal differences. It’s so inevitable how different people react to different things, and how if someone has achieved a higher level of education and holds a more prestigious, high-paying job, that person is bound to act differently from another who is maybe less well off and less intellectual. I find it hard to accept when these differences are so striking and sometimes make me wriggle with discomfort, yet that’s the way society works, and I will just have to accept the way it is.

#3: I finally see the possibilities of seeing him in a bad light. Though they aren’t true, it shows how vicious people can be. Maybe not vicious, but opinionated and judgmental against others. I don’t blame them of course, sometimes, people just can’t reconcile with each other.

#4: I must not get angry no matter how many times people may say some things about me. Because if I am really bent on practicing to “forgive and forget”, then each time I am potentially antagonized, I should always treat it as the first, having forgotten the previous insults.

#5: Even as I slip deeper into regret and empathy, I truly pray for God to pull me through this hard time. The worst state one can ever be in is apathy.

It's been a long time...

Sun, 15 Jun 2008 10:44:26 GMT

It's never mutual
Not this year at least, not this year.

(s)Afternoon(/s) Night Naps

Thu, 15 May 2008 16:53:52 GMT

Many many many many things have happened the past week, since I last posted. hmmm now, where shall i start...

Friday was a pretty memorable OM day, again, my team had a late night talk, but for the first half, I was learning how to play cricket, bearing insults of softball, and insulting cricket heh heh...
AHHH YES, MATH PORTFOLIO WAS GIVEN OUT.
WHO IN THE WORLD WAS SO SADISTIC AND MALICIOUS TO COME UP WITH SUCH A THING.
ONE WEEK AND FOUR DAYS OF NOTHING BUT PURE PAIN THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Saturday. OMGOSH MY JOKE, MY JOKE. so, I wanted to buy matches for OM, thus, I called Kevin up.
Ariel: "HEYYY KEVIN. Where can you find matches? Other than on the field?? * HYSTERICAL LAUGHTER*
Yes, I'm funny, I know hahahaha :D :D :D

Sunday
I was supposed to go to the library with Sheryl and Marissa, in the end, they both couldn't make it, so i just joined Daniel, Joyce, and ReeRee who happened to be there too! ReeRee's sister was there. I COULD CLIQUE WELL WITH HER I MUST SAY. :D hahahah omgosh we were so spastic. yesyes, had some fun, while complaining about my EE to no end. Thank God, I got Sir as my EE mentor WHEEEE... before this, I didn't even think my proposal was going to be accepted!!!

Monday
A DIVISION RUGBY FINALS, ACSI CHAMPS
It was my FIRST time I followed the game so closely, and OMGOSH IT WAS SOOOO FUN!!!!
hahahaaa I know before this I said i wanted to play contact. Well, not anymore. IT'S SUPER FIERCE!!! LIKE, FIERCER THAN ANYTHING. hahahahah but cool yes, cool :D
Congratulations to all the ruggers, including the few who conspired to make me dirty after the game
*NARROWS EYES*
I LIKE my school anthem. It's very nice!!

Tuesday
hmmm ECONS TUITION!
MATH PORTFOLIO *narrows eyes*

Wednesday
WE WERE GOING TO GO AND WATCH SOFTBALL FINALS BUT OMGAH IT JUST HAD TO RAIN!!!
*grumbles*
So, they dropped us of at the Kallang Leisure Place, and WE NEARLY WENT ICE SKATING, until a few giggling. OKAY NOT A FEW, A WHOLE HORDE OF THEM, filed into the place, and we just decided to have a good lunch.
hahahaha I <3 MY CLASS
Dropped by the field to see my ex-teammates.
I wanted to cry in the cab cause i missed them so much.
Life would have been soooo different had i gone to hwach/rj
ohwellos, I'm here now, stuck with pressing homework LIKE MY MATH PORTFOLIO
"ARIEL LIM STOP SLACKING."
I missed Bethany's match tooooo. SHE WON THOUGH, SO YAY :D hahah my heart was there!

I had a time-out today.
I'm sick of being put down by others, time and again, whether they mean it or not. Sigh. Too much in a day, too much in a day. I guess part of it also stems from -. and yes, I must get over it. I MUST AND I WILL. I will not put myself through any pain. "What a smart girl!"
hahahah YES, I DO HAPPEN TO BE GOOD ENOUGH uhh like generally. must constantly remind myself of my worth, or else I'm going to end up like some of the pathetic JLC women. SEE, I DID LEARN SOMETHING FROM THAT SPASTIC BOOK AFTERALL... sigh i miss it ): so stop saying I'm not. doesn't matter if i'm slower. I LIKE BEING SLOW, AND YOU CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT HAH. okay Ariel, uncalled defiance.
MATH PORTFOLIO IS MESSING UP MY BIOLOGICAL CLOCK. I KEEP TAKING NAPS RIGHT AFTER I COME HOME, TILL 12, AND IT'S NOT EVEN INTENTIONAL AHHHHHHH
okay I don't care. MATH PORTFOLIO CAN GO AND AJEHROW IUTQ PARABOLAS CAN BURNNN AND INTERSECTIONS CAN WITHER HAH HAH "WHATCHOOGONNADOABOURRRRRIT"!!!! (From the alex/timo gang) HAHAHAHA okay spastic. byebye

simple, child-like faith

Wed, 07 May 2008 14:46:45 GMT

I JUST DID SOME FILING.
I realised that the older I get, the more organised I am.. EEK. Suppose it's good though.
TOK IS rather enjoyable, there ARE benefits to having a class that isn't too serious and quite FOS. We crapped a presentation in a minute, and managed to make it past heahehahea, well, it's not as if it's very hard to get past Mdm though, she's really slaaack ><

It's increasingly hard to differentiate respect and like, I guess, I really can't and won't like, but I really do deeply respect and use as a role model, it also helps to be a better person.

OM was fulfilling today, it really tested my faith I guess. It's my first time hearing the spiritual perspectives of my dear teammates, and i was really heartened that we were able to talk about it, although I didn't agree with some of their views, it was really a thought-provoking, yet civilised religious discussion. :D WHEEEEEE hahahah but OM wise, I didn't do much again, cept for sticking those brushes. I COMPLETELY MISSED OUT TWO PARTS OF THE MOUNTAINS AND I TOOK DAYS TO REALISE THAT THEY WERE BUTTON-LESS. ughh

Sigh, was fined $5 today because I was on duty yesterday and this morning, there were ants on Sir's table ):
"Leadership is not picking up other's shit, it's getting problems solved" hahahaha somehow, simple as that theory may seem, it's just a good reminder for me.

These few days, the realisation of a few reasons why I failed to get in slowly came to me, I'm recovering from that blow, and i really thank God for it.

Must practice Math AHHAHA
OMGOSHOMGOSHOMGOSH AHHAHA TODAY DURING MATH, I REPLIED "YEH MAMA" TO MADAM, IN THE GOONG WAY, AND SHE GAVE ME A BEWILDERED LOOK HEAHEAHEAH. She couldn't believe what i said, THANK GOD HYUNG TOLD US IT MEANT "YES YOUR MAJESTY" so hahaha Madam just gave me the look PHEW. Twas really funny then though.

yes. BYEBEYEEE

YES I FORGOT ABOUT MY MAC AHHAHA TODAY, IS THE INAUGURAL "ARIELTOOKOUTHERBATTERY" DAY HOW COOOOOOL!!! AND THE BATTERY'S REALLY HEAVY, IT'S STILL COOL THOUGH, IT LOOKS RAD :D

I WANT TO BREAK FREE

Sun, 04 May 2008 13:58:58 GMT

I think too much and slack too much partly cause I'm thinking. HAHA that didn't make sense!!!!! :D

So today at church, I experienced something really bizarre. I looked at the people around me, and started thinking about what I was thinking about them. As in not being judgmental, but just wondering about their lives, as a whole, AIYA i don't know, it was just very... bizarre. HAHAHA

I WANT TO BREAK FREEEEEE. I want to BREAK FREEE. I don't want to do my Mock IOP!!!!!

Sigh, council investiture is tomorrow, I shan't hide the fact that I haven't completely gotten over not getting in, and it really gets to me sometimes, but I'm coping i guess. The fact still is that now, I'm stranded in the middle of nowhere, and this has nothing to do with council. HAHAHA OKAY. WHUTEVER ARIEL I DON'T CAREEEEE
Careless whisper HAHAHAH. okay shutup I'm really not making sense

OMGOSH THE JAPANESE ACTRESS IN THE LAST SAMURAI'S SOOOO HOT!!! Ahahahaha no I'm not lesbian :D

Thank God for the 4.5 hour nap.

And I need to re-direct my focus. Reading up on Faith to prepare today's lesson was really good, it just made me realise how much there is about God that I can know but don't know. SO YES, PRESS ON PEOPLE.

THE SUN WILL KILL US ALL, THE END TIMES ARE NEARER BY YET ANOTHER DAY!!!
heh random thought.

DANIEL HENNEY FTW <3

Fri, 02 May 2008 15:40:36 GMT

HAHAHAAH I <3 OM MANZXZX.

Alrighty, school was crazy (as usual)
I called someone a "butt", and Madam promptly said, "WHO SAID THE FOUR LETTER B WORD???" hahahaha it was quite funny!!!
We had a history test, which i didn't complete but it's quite stupid cause i was tired from TRYING to read last night and i ended up not being able to actually use anything i read cause i was too slow, and thus didn't complete the last question. Guh.
OH OH OH OMG HAHAHA I LOVE CHINESE B MAN. We had freaking 1.5 hours to do ONE zuowen! and it's YINGYONGWEN I MEAN, OMGOSH RIGHT HAHAHA I ACTUALLY HAD TIME TO STONE AND TO THINK AND TO WRITE IN DECENT HANDWRITING : D what a far cry from those days when we had 2 hours for 2 zuowens. ZOMG, i never knew how i managed!

OOOH and i saw a REALLY COOL INSECT TODAY. You see, when it's still, it looks like a black thingamabob stick thingy of some sorts. So i didn't believe that it was an insect bUT OH EM GEE I WENT TO BLOW IT AND IT PRACTICALLY EXPLODED SOUNDLESSLY INTO WHAT LOOKED LIKE A SPIDER. A BIG BLACK SPIDER. And of course, i screamed, SOP. heaheaheha

Tonight was fun, really fun, I FINALLY FINISHED DOING THE STUPID ALUMINIUM FOIL THING. Probably the most effective thing i've done this year HAHAHAH.

SO AS USUAL, WE SCARED OURSELVES SILLY ON OUR TOILET GOING TRIPS. First Ada screamed, but that was to scare me, AND THEN WHEN WE WERE WALKING PAST THE MALE TOILET, SHE SCREAMED AGAIN, THIS TIME LONGER, hahahaha stupid Ronald was just silently standing there, and i saw a figure, his of course, and screamed too heahehea. AND those boys ah, they went to switch of the OM room lights, and we purposely didn't want to go in and get frightened, so we were alright, just being a little jumpy WHEN KEVIN WENT TO SHAKE THE DOOR, i swear, we spent sooooooo long screaming hahaha longer than uh i don't know what HAHAHAHA

OKAY HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY : D: D :D
WE SPENT THE LAST HOUR OR SO, BEING HORMONAL.
hahhhaha WE'RE SERIOUSLY DEPRIVED, I MEAN IT'S BAD ENOUGH THAT there's no eyecandy, WE DON'T HAVE LIVES ):
So, it all started with Marissa watching hot guys, and then showing Ada, and then suddenly, ALL FIVE GIRLS WE IN FRONT OF THE MACBOOK, TELLING EACH OTHER AND AGREEING WITH EACH OTHER ON HOT GUYS HAHAHAHA IT WAS SO FUNNY, and we all started watching youtube!!! There was this particular video, WHICH STARTED OFF WITH DANIEL HENNEY AND YOU WOULDN'T BELIEVE IT, THE MOMENT THE PICTURE APPEARED, ALL OF US STARTING SHRIEKING. HAHAHAHAHA FREAKING FUNNY OMGOSH IT WAS SO COOL, and I was getting goosebumps and everything snortsnortsnort... : D

SO YES, and Marissa and Ada went crazy over Naley, i think i have a heart of stone, HEH HEH. Their hearts were melting but NOT THAT TOUCHING WHAT ..

BET PPPPP WOULD HAVE BEEN HYPERVENTILATING IF SHE WATCHED THOSE VIDEOS TOO. XD

yes i MUST meet up with so many people after OM is done, i really have no life ):
couldn't even go for the HC RJ match, really badly wanted to grrrrr.....
OHWELLOS. NYSB, I MISS YOU GUYSIEWUYSIES <3333

okay yes hahaha i'm done : D BYEBYEBEY

Thu, 01 May 2008 17:07:38 GMT

It's just amazing how people stick to their convictions and would rather suffer than to abandon their beliefs.
The poor Bolshevik heroes, to think they chose to die in humiliation than tell the truth and oppose their party.
I LIKE THE NIGHT, WE SHOULD HAVE SCHOOL AT NIGHT, I'LL BE MORE PRODUCTIVE.
okay back to history.